when to say no more

well, against my better judgement, i'm going to write at an hour when i'm probably not thinking as clearly as i should be.

just got back from the joynt. my drinking sabbatical is still going strong. tonight i had a sprite and a water. the second i walked in there i reminded myself of what my goals are in the next couple days. manhattan grad school audtions....probably the biggest opportunity i've had yet, just a couple days away. pray for me.

the joynt was fun tonight. colin got in a verbal bout with some really drunk guy. i admit i was a little anxious about what drunk guy was going to do because he was getting loud and his judgement probably wasn't quite spot on. the last thing i wanted to see was colin getting whacked in the mouth at such an unfortunate time. on a lighter note, lydon and i teamed up and did well on the dartboard until we got beat the last game. kevin and jake were up to 120 points with 20s and 18s closed after two rounds. ouch.

i had a thought as i drove home...

at what point do you give up and at what point do you keep trying at something? is it a matter of how much something means to you or is it a matter of how long you've been at it and how close you think you are? should trying for x number of years with little success be a sign that it's just not going to happen? i can't remember the last time i gave up on something...well, something moderately important anyways. i've been having this thought about music, and other things... maybe i'm just at a point where it feels like it's do or die, but in the end it's really not. personally, i think giving up blows. but then again, so does mental anguish and i know that i have the ability to let it all go once and for all. my problem is that once i let something go, it's gone forever (which is what i want), so it's hard for me to take that step. no worries though. i'm not about to give up on trombone (yet anyways) and i'm not giving up on life or anything like that. in the grand scheme of things, my problems are miniscule (sp?) and for that, i'm thankful.

dad came down today and we had lunch at the acoustic. when i got in his car he had a page of the newspaper folded open to an article titled Impeachment would solve many of country's problems written by garrison keillor. a surprising find for me since my dad is a republican. here's a link to the article; http://www.duluthsuperior.com/mld/duluthsuperior/news/editorial/13997364.htm if you've taken the time to read this far into my post you probably have a couple more minutes to invest in reading it. i'm not sure how long that link will work either. keillor refers to dick cheney as "gunner" which i found to be pretty freaking hilarious.

welp. that's all i got for now. i probably won't get a chance to write before i leave for nyc, so i'll be sure to save up some good stories for the next post.

g'nite,
james